1 moon, 2 moon, white moon, blue moon

Was not feeling the third person thing today . This Sagittarius moon is the second this month making it a Blue Moon. So besides calling in this it is a releasing ritual kind of manifesting time along with calling in manifestation ritual time. 9 & 9 it is a house kind of number if you care please go live ok it up if not know I have a I release list and a I call in list. I could not find the moon after my swim till I finally asked the clouds to move so I could get a good look at her. 

 I told the moon the things I give to it to take. And then erased them from my phone list a List of nine things

 Also the 9 things I call into my life as well.

 I shall not share them all with you except for one. This month between moons I decided to give someone who deserves it forgiveness. I worked on forgiving me, for staying in a toxic marriage, for needing to for survival to care for my children. One of which is my step child so I would have had no rights to. I was a good actor at times when I was at the lowest points I acted as if they were some of our best.  I forgive myself For using that situation to care for my mother through heart attack and stroke. I also am accepting that receiving alimony is not wrong it is survival. I intend to build myself many sources of money income so as not to not need it. Besides I deserve love and will not let losing alimony by moving forward in love hold power over me. I forgive myself all I didn't know, and all I tolerated. I Release with this Sagittarius blue moon that grief. And it leads me to in many ways forgive my Ex not because he deserves it. But because I deserve it. I Release him. ("You have no power over me"~Sarah the Labranth) SO MOTE IT BE!

As you can see me and the moon had a long conversation. She was hiding for a while so I moved the clouds so I could see her in all her Glory. During that time I snapped some photos of her. Blessed be my Luna.

37.25+20=57.25 

57.25 + 180 =237.25

237.25 =6.37 miles

Just another day

 180 laps=4.83  miles 10 laps in 15min

37.5 = mile

Yesterday the our Heroine worked at home making Dinglehoppers for stock for the Pagan picnic this coming weekend. Then went to Aquasize and do laps. The Wizard of Aim made it to the work out so they chose to eat out together.

During dinner the Wizard of Aim stated she can tell if Our Heroine is in a Histamine flare or flare in general by her food order. Seems Our Heroine will actively check ingredients when not doing well.  Our Heroine's far speaker was at 6% so she pre called in for the SCA busyness meeting. 

Today was work as usual. Our Heroine realized she is done being a care taker and will be exploring becoming something new maybe as soon as the fall. She also took on a special request for a neighbor of second client and will we doing some cleaning once a month. Sigh  😔 There was a large wolf spider hanging out in the rest room of second clients tub. It scared Our Heroine buy surprising her when she went to fill the mop bucket. It's name shall be Athena. Or Charlie. Not sure.

Our Heroine scared herself by leaving in a rush to get C-clamps and baking pans for Lampworking before swimming. She left the oven on with a chicken breast cooking and only remembered when exiting the club of chlorinated water. She saw two 🚒 fire engines and had a minor panic as the memory came flooding in, She has never done that before. She called a person who shared the residency and they turned off the oven. The good thing was Our Heroine was racing to swim as fast as she could so she had max time in the shower since the club shut at 9 on Friday and Our Heroine got there at 8:05. She was leaving the club by 8:42

She took 15 minutes to swim. It would have been faster but she had hair under her goggles and they kept leaving the first 2 laps. 

Our Heroine might be ready to buy water 💦 🌊 proof bone conductive head phones. 

Since planned dinner was  in-edible she had to come up with something else to eat for dinner. The fastest thing was some vegan chicken that her daughter had and blue berries. 

Our Heroine need to plan dinner better. She is bad at feeding herself. 30 years of being a care taker leaves her a little meh if she isn't thinking of feeding someone else. 

She did eat salads for lunch 😊 

 

Dealing with others negativity

Our Heroine walked into her clients house to be hit with gossip & negative medical additude. Sigh 

Luckily it was a shopping day. Because the words kept pouring out, even in the vehicle  However in the Truckasaurus Rex Our Heroine put on her Witch play list that also has positive affirmations. 

They did stop the negative almost the second the music started.

This morning Our Heroine realized all her hair clips were in the car she wakes up with wild hair because she dosen.t sleep in a bonnet she needs to braid it for bed but again she doesn't It is a lot of work and she should put in the work but someday she dosen't have the spoons by bed time. 

Tonight the Witch Hat Society  is going out for dinner. The Side witch, the Wizard of Aim,  & Mary Moon. They are going to a place named Yeti. 

The goal is to go out at least once a month till the Side Witch 🧹 moves to Chicago Land.

Our Heroine believes that she will get home to late to swim today as such she will need to do twice tomorrow or attempt to do 20 laps instead of just 10.

 10  laps 

160 laps= 4.3 miles 10 laps in 16 min

37.5 = mile

replacing the scale #'s. And tools

Our Heroine is proud to have brought her lap time down to 15 min for 10 laps. Can't promise it will be that low every day but practice, practice, practice. 

Our Heroine has a rule she tries and live by which is don't buy the things unless you have proven you will do the thing first. As such she now has hand paddles and goggles also ear plugs. The Hand paddles help form. It is near impossible to turn arms and hands wrong while using them. It is nice to not have to clear water from her ears. And goggles are needed to stay straight in her lane and not hit the wall.

Our Heroine is not pleased with the scale however she is fitting in things better. She just wants faster results. She wants a tight stomach one that she would be proud of naked.

Our Heroine & the Wizard of Aim ran away to the woods. They made a 2 hr hike take 4 hrs as they stopped for rock hunting and photos a lot. 

 150 laps= 4.02 miles    10 laps in 15 min

37.5 = mile

Dingle hoppers

Today Our Heroine worked on Dingle Hoppers most of the day. Only leaving the Cave to do her 10 laps. 

The DQ app however nailed her as she was leaving the gym so non dairy dilli bar happened. 

ADHD and gym bags don't mix. Our Heroine learned that she has to have 2 towels and 2 swim suits and no gum bag. As such she has changed and a canvas bag and croquet shower bag. Gym bags are where things go to mildew. Though she does now have to have the windows down more to air dry stuff. She goes straight to the shower from the pool and rinses the suit as she strips it off then hand wrings it out. And hangs it on the hanger when she exits the show she hangs it over the sink in the locker room whild dressing. She hasn't left it in the sink since she started using hangers. The one piece shares the towel hanger. The only challenge is remembering to refill the shampoo & conditioner

A Dingle Hopper is a mobile with a fork on it. The name diriving from the Disney the little mermaid. 

Our Heroine will sell them at the Pagan picnic this year. They have sea glass and prisms also as such they work for sky and/or water. 

She is hoping to go hiking tomorrow with the Wizard of Aim. 

 

 

2nd swim of day hit on

 Our Heroine worked out this morning the swam, she received a call from me client asking for a ride home so Our Heroine went straight and helped them out.  During this trek Our Heroine was chatting in Discord with one of her new youths. She seems to have begun her Mamma Bear Era. So she decided to go kid knap said College student and walk the water shed and drive route 66 to the next town and do Lunch. During which fried mushrooms were eaten so afterwards back to swim another 10 laps

The bathing suit and towel from this morning was wet so she wore the medium size one that she wore at The Princess' wedding it get again and is fitting better every day. Though Our Heroine did see the middle in two places it was way to low cut for her comfort. This is the first time she has ever taken a selfie of herself in a swimming suit. She is working on being more body positive. At the moment she is only positive she is not yet happy with hers. However she is working on that. Sigh. 

Also I was hit on while in the pool and checked out when leaving the pool. And I will say I felt kind of nice

130 laps 3.49 miles

Kinetic meditation

 Breath in, 4 strokes breathing out. Repeat all while repeating in our head the number of the lap she is on. 

Our Heroine Aquisized this morning and did 10 laps in the evening. The scale is unfortunately/ fortunately showing gains but it is muscle. 

Don't get her wrong if she ever finds herself in an intimate setting she wants to not lose her breath from being out of shape. And things are drinking in places she would like them too. This time around  Our Heroine is aiming high. She looks forward to the day her head rests on a heart that feels like home. But that is a bonus. Feeling self empowered. That is the win. That and no medical bill for preventable illnesses. 

There is a plank challenge that out Heroine has wanted to be able to do. She tried when she started this fitness journey. So watch for it. 

Side witch project

 Today's adventures of Our Heroine involved The side Witch 🧹 and the Viking Cat Lady🐈.

The day starts my our Heroine drinking coffee trying out a new cream alternative for her coffee working great might be better with flavored stevia. Then she was working on stock for Pagan picnic and damaging both of her thumb nails. One she cracked the polish the other she chipped the nail  as such she will be doing a special trip to the nail lounge for a repair tomorrow it is just 7 days since she had then done. 

After that She and the Side Witch 🧹 met up with the Viking Lady🐈 did lunch then headed to the Great abis of storage to look for treasures. They spent 3 long hours and sorted many things. The Viking Cat Lady left with her car Full. 5 boxes when to the Thrift, a half box of cups for the kingdom, and pewter for the Heroine to melt Means walking room in the Great Abis of storage, Yay! 🎉

Still Our Heroine got she ass to the Pool and did her work out and her 10 laps. She did her laps in 17 min new record. Bad news she is not sure if her is now putting on so much muscle that is is out pacing fat lose pound for pound. 😔 Middle class, middle aged, first world, yoga pants wearing, white women problem. 😆 But man Her Legs Look amazeballs. 

Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming.

100 laps = 2.64 miles

37.25=1 mile.

Over coming the overcast day

Today our Heroine had to make boundaries firm with her Client. As such her dropped her at the Medical Appointment and then logged off the clock. Sucky because lost pay. But also good because the Heroine did not stay off the clock. The old habits would have had her do so. 

The Heroine then did errands.Food yes our Heroine remembered to feed herself, Fuel, key made, Food for the 4 Footed, musical, hot water, bottle that yells at her for snacrifises. And a walk up Cahokia mounds, then a chocolate coffee vegan protein smoothie. After a short rest at which time, lap time as demand. And at past off to second client. After work our Heroine ate a salad before she met up with a young man in the parking lot behind the garden at The college to pick up a rock (this will be how she dies one day) 😂 

Since all the way home n E-ville she stopped at the club of Sam again the straight to Swimming before she talked her self out of them.

This wasn't supposed to be an off day but She got things done like it way. 

Tomorrow Our Heroine and the Side Witch meet up with a Viking cat 🐈 😺 lady. They are doing lunch and raiding a storage unit. 

Labradorite

The thistles blooming on Monks mound  

Dott is a dick she took my computer chair so I sat on the futon but she came over and demanded attention. Bossy cat

 

Cheshire Moon I was thinking the clouds would let me see the planets Tonight 

While she is not thrilled with her shape she is happier then she was 

 

Trying to chase the grumpies away. An accidental poem

 Our heroine woke up grumpy. And the cat was loud and spoke too much. That fur line musical hot water bottle had a lot to say and demanding to be held. 

Our heroin did not sleep well, so it seems. 

Yet she had to rise early from her dream. 

Scheduled to work early per the norm,

but her clients shift was in short form 

As our heroin clocked off only 40 minutes in. 

Would the day go to waste? What a sin 

Overcast and cloudy heroin was pouty 

And so errands she ran off to do, 

Trying to cound blessing to chance of the blue.

Drop off at thrift store, then cat food & fuel oh what a cost,

Get a send key for truck made adding up the financial loss.

Maybe swim in not this early especially in the rain.

Wait a hike up Cahokia mound stairs, (sounds like my insane)

Arrived at the mound site

Get to the top in one go with all my might

Thistle, comfrey and clover, Butterflies and birds, 

The view is fantastic, and so many other words.

Tourists and locals, swallows and chimney swifts and painted ladies, dandelions and goat weed,  also pineapple chamomile,

The sun comes out and the view is clear and I can't help but smile.

Our Heroine was Grumpy and trying to keep her feeling at bay

If she can't count your blessings she'll make new ones today. 

Just Keep swimming

 Our Heroine spent the weekend being Mama bear for a friend the Ginger Boy making their birthday fun by running around Chicago land. Missed swimming because of it.

However that didn't slow her down no it did not. 

Our Heroines new best time for 10 laps is 20 min. 

37.25 laps = 1 mile.  60 laps almost at 2 miles 

Woot. 

So for old beltain our Heroine shared time with a friend and had fun. 

Catieo transport

 Our Heroine is ADHD. As such her day off involved moving a Catieo for the Queen of Dorks around 3pm. As such the Heroine had to spend her day in that area of the town. 

She had new sparkles added to her nails. Found a smoothy place with Mango Tajin as a flavor. Visited a clothing store. Found a boba store with peach tea and mango popping boba. And bought hangers for the Strawberry truckasaurus rex because the swim suit and towel spends more time in it and needs to hang. Also she acquired better swim goggles and swim hands. 

Still she made it back in time to Aquisize plus she did her 10 laps after. And she broke her own record for time for them 30min. The goal is to get better at the 10 before adding more laps. This is a skill application she learned from the Master of cordiers. He once told the Heroine not to enter 12 entries into a largess competition, but instead make one dinomite entry. This logic can be applied to any skill. And is something ADHD folks have a challenge with. 

However because the goal of 10 is just short enough that as the boredom of repetition sets in the task is over. 

Our Heroine did not eat enough salt today so at the end of laps she was in rough shape and had to quickly remedy the salt issues. 

All is all not a bad day though.

Miles of swimming

 Our Heroine is working out in the pool and now swimming everday. Her goal is to do laps everyday that she is home. 37.25 laps 1 mile. 

Our Heroine has been good and has done 10 laps on everday she didn't work out. This means 4 days so far. Some days it was hard for our Heroine to make herself go. However our Heroine has 2 people to answer to... One is her 8 year old self and the other is her 80 year old self. If she intends to live into her 90's them this is a gate way.

Today our Heroine has passed her first mile by hitting 40 laps. 

Yay! 

Not today (not in 3rd person today my loves)

 My life is... When I plan safe things my universe pushes the safe opportunities away. Every crazy thing happened and put me where I am today. I lost FIT at 16, but It made Jackie and Puppy and Dad be a big part of my life which gave me the SCA. That also led to me moving to meet my father and oldest sister, whereas I would only have known Alan because he reached out. When I went to school for architecture the car accident ended that and made me meet the ex-husband. A car accident during his visit led us to marriage which gave me Brad and we created Amber. The execs father dying lead to us being in IL. And I love all my friends I met because of that. The ex lost his job and we ended up moving to Edwardsville for him to do college. I used to say the only way I could learn to dance was to be in shattered Crystal with Mistress Alphea. And I also learned metal casting from Master Philippe that way too. I went back to school planning to do physical therapy. My mother had a heart attack then a stroke. I only finished the AS because my Daughter insisted I do so. Because we were down in Edwardsville after the ex went to school Amber got a diagnosis because Wash U and STL childrens hospital. So I need to accept that I am not in charge of my life. I am just a player. The plot is strange, the players are entertaining most of the time. The Villain is more shallow than any book but it is like hearing the thoughts of a character or a story teller where you hate the villain but they are needed. 

. I have to tell you I have been through earthquakes, hurricanes, typhoons,, record floods and a house fire. T bones by a street cleaner, and a semi trash truck. Folded the wheels on a car stopped by a street sigh so I didn't tumble down a ravine in my first month of pregnancy. I have forgotten more crazy s*** that has happened to me than I can even remember. I remember sitting in my tent playing cards when almost all the tents in Midrealm came down during Gulf-nato. Life inconveniences me. And bullies me where it will make me go. 

Place your bets my friend because it is going to be spectacular! It will always be ok in the end. This is why I can tell it is not the end. I am very impatient. I am horrible at gift giving because I give them as soon as I get them. I am so very close to the next part of my life. I know the transition feeling. I know what is not happening. I am making choices from letting tents go. To culling fabric and garb. Working out and eating healthy to live a long life independently without medical assistance. (I Could not say that in 2016) I am about to be 54. I don't feel 54. I don't know if anyone feels their age though. Everything will start to change fast from May 1st beltane full moon on. 🌒🌕🌘 So what is next. Not a friggin clue. Should we place bets. 

I am betting I become independently wealthy, start a foundation with most of the money marriage the love of my life and travel the world. 

I would love seeing all the places and with my current health I could hike even (no mountain climbing) maybe get married on a mountain top or in a wooded ceremony. I never got a wedding the first time so that might be nice.

 Don't quit your day dreams, my loves. 

Closing Karma loops. Ep. 7- 2026

 Our Heroine, is back to losing numbers on the evil  floor plate with moving numbers (scale)! She has lost the equivalency of 3 bags of flour in just Fat alone.  Maybe even more when take into consideration that she has gained much muscle. 

She has set to work doing one thing a day extra such as making rings or other creative endeavors 

She is enjoying making herself the person she is meant to be. Loving herself. Closing only Karma loops so that she in no longer in them. 

The future is amazing. The future is now. 

Nails done,

two rings made, pewter being cast.