Trying to chase the grumpies away. An accidental poem

 Our heroine woke up grumpy. And the cat was loud and spoke too much. That fur line musical hot water bottle had a lot to say and demanding to be held. 

Our heroin did not sleep well, so it seems. 

Yet she had to rise early from her dream. 

Scheduled to work early per the norm,

but her clients shift was in short form 

As our heroin clocked off only 40 minutes in. 

Would the day go to waste? What a sin 

Overcast and cloudy heroin was pouty 

And so errands she ran off to do, 

Trying to cound blessing to chance of the blue.

Drop off at thrift store, then cat food & fuel oh what a cost,

Get a send key for truck made adding up the financial loss.

Maybe swim in not this early especially in the rain.

Wait a hike up Cahokia mound stairs, (sounds like my insane)

Arrived at the mound site

Get to the top in one go with all my might

Thistle, comfrey and clover, Butterflies and birds, 

The view is fantastic, and so many other words.

Tourists and locals, swallows and chimney swifts and painted ladies, dandelions and goat weed,  also pineapple chamomile,

The sun comes out and the view is clear and I can't help but smile.

Our Heroine was Grumpy and trying to keep her feeling at bay

If she can't count your blessings she'll make new ones today. 

Just Keep swimming

 Our Heroine spent the weekend being Mama bear for a friend the Ginger Boy making their birthday fun by running around Chicago land. Missed swimming because of it.

However that didn't slow her down no it did not. 

Our Heroines new best time for 10 laps is 20 min. 

37.25 laps = 1 mile.  60 laps almost at 2 miles 

Woot. 

So for old beltain our Heroine shared time with a friend and had fun. 

Catieo transport

 Our Heroine is ADHD. As such her day off involved moving a Catieo for the Queen of Dorks around 3pm. As such the Heroine had to spend her day in that area of the town. 

She had new sparkles added to her nails. Found a smoothy place with Mango Tajin as a flavor. Visited a clothing store. Found a boba store with peach tea and mango popping boba. And bought hangers for the Strawberry truckasaurus rex because the swim suit and towel spends more time in it and needs to hang. Also she acquired better swim goggles and swim hands. 

Still she made it back in time to Aquisize plus she did her 10 laps after. And she broke her own record for time for them 30min. The goal is to get better at the 10 before adding more laps. This is a skill application she learned from the Master of cordiers. He once told the Heroine not to enter 12 entries into a largess competition, but instead make one dinomite entry. This logic can be applied to any skill. And is something ADHD folks have a challenge with. 

However because the goal of 10 is just short enough that as the boredom of repetition sets in the task is over. 

Our Heroine did not eat enough salt today so at the end of laps she was in rough shape and had to quickly remedy the salt issues. 

All is all not a bad day though.

Miles of swimming

 Our Heroine is working out in the pool and now swimming everday. Her goal is to do laps everyday that she is home. 37.25 laps 1 mile. 

Our Heroine has been good and has done 10 laps on everday she didn't work out. This means 4 days so far. Some days it was hard for our Heroine to make herself go. However our Heroine has 2 people to answer to... One is her 8 year old self and the other is her 80 year old self. If she intends to live into her 90's them this is a gate way.

Today our Heroine has passed her first mile by hitting 40 laps. 

Yay! 

Not today (not in 3rd person today my loves)

 My life is... When I plan safe things my universe pushes the safe opportunities away. Every crazy thing happened and put me where I am today. I lost FIT at 16, but It made Jackie and Puppy and Dad be a big part of my life which gave me the SCA. That also led to me moving to meet my father and oldest sister, whereas I would only have known Alan because he reached out. When I went to school for architecture the car accident ended that and made me meet the ex-husband. A car accident during his visit led us to marriage which gave me Brad and we created Amber. The execs father dying lead to us being in IL. And I love all my friends I met because of that. The ex lost his job and we ended up moving to Edwardsville for him to do college. I used to say the only way I could learn to dance was to be in shattered Crystal with Mistress Alphea. And I also learned metal casting from Master Philippe that way too. I went back to school planning to do physical therapy. My mother had a heart attack then a stroke. I only finished the AS because my Daughter insisted I do so. Because we were down in Edwardsville after the ex went to school Amber got a diagnosis because Wash U and STL childrens hospital. So I need to accept that I am not in charge of my life. I am just a player. The plot is strange, the players are entertaining most of the time. The Villain is more shallow than any book but it is like hearing the thoughts of a character or a story teller where you hate the villain but they are needed. 

. I have to tell you I have been through earthquakes, hurricanes, typhoons,, record floods and a house fire. T bones by a street cleaner, and a semi trash truck. Folded the wheels on a car stopped by a street sigh so I didn't tumble down a ravine in my first month of pregnancy. I have forgotten more crazy s*** that has happened to me than I can even remember. I remember sitting in my tent playing cards when almost all the tents in Midrealm came down during Gulf-nato. Life inconveniences me. And bullies me where it will make me go. 

Place your bets my friend because it is going to be spectacular! It will always be ok in the end. This is why I can tell it is not the end. I am very impatient. I am horrible at gift giving because I give them as soon as I get them. I am so very close to the next part of my life. I know the transition feeling. I know what is not happening. I am making choices from letting tents go. To culling fabric and garb. Working out and eating healthy to live a long life independently without medical assistance. (I Could not say that in 2016) I am about to be 54. I don't feel 54. I don't know if anyone feels their age though. Everything will start to change fast from May 1st beltane full moon on. 🌒🌕🌘 So what is next. Not a friggin clue. Should we place bets. 

I am betting I become independently wealthy, start a foundation with most of the money marriage the love of my life and travel the world. 

I would love seeing all the places and with my current health I could hike even (no mountain climbing) maybe get married on a mountain top or in a wooded ceremony. I never got a wedding the first time so that might be nice.

 Don't quit your day dreams, my loves. 

Closing Karma loops. Ep. 7- 2026

 Our Heroine, is back to losing numbers on the evil  floor plate with moving numbers (scale)! She has lost the equivalency of 3 bags of flour in just Fat alone.  Maybe even more when take into consideration that she has gained much muscle. 

She has set to work doing one thing a day extra such as making rings or other creative endeavors 

She is enjoying making herself the person she is meant to be. Loving herself. Closing only Karma loops so that she in no longer in them. 

The future is amazing. The future is now. 

Nails done,

two rings made, pewter being cast.

 

 

New moons- and new beginnings Episode 6 2026

 This new moon was ceremonial of leaving in the past so much for Our Heroine. Self Judgement for the years of Marriage to someone who played a part and was not their true self, excepting that it is not a judgement on self. 

In-between next was deciding what we shall create in our life. Which we have been manifesting the last 3 weeks being joyous to people no matter the energy they return ( no being adoor mat is not what it equates too) the people who Our Heroine met expressed sadness at my going, as did the folks at the church thrift store. And she will miss them as well. Showing up with a smile and announced of hello beautiful to each of them and a parting wish of have a blessed day left them with a smile and joy and that is what she wants to be in the world 🌎 🌍 

The Equinox is a time of birth it is when we embrace what we intend to be by calling into our existence as by using language speaking as it is done. 

Some folks say it is faking it till you make it. Our Heroine does not. It is being who we forgot we were. Still wearing masks when shielding is necessary. 

Now she just needs to figure out how to shield when in the presence of the ones she's cannot shield from while around other people. Not that she needs to shield around this one for they are safe and she is most happy and in her true self in their presence. However, this doesn't work always when in mixed company. 

When our heroine is in their company.she can just be... In speaking and in silence. 

But there is so much that our heroine is creating in her life. 

May all find the abundance and the love they seek and the joy of living and creating. So Mote it be and a Blessed Be to y'all

Burning words calling them in to creation 

A walk on the shore with Cuz Julz the Gem

We found a record number of Park rocks 26

And filled my pocket with sea glass.