Not today (not in 3rd person today my loves)

 My life is... When I plan safe things my universe pushes the safe opportunities away. Every crazy thing happened and put me where I am today. I lost FIT at 16, but It made Jackie and Puppy and Dad be a big part of my life which gave me the SCA. That also led to me moving to meet my father and oldest sister, whereas I would only have known Alan because he reached out. When I went to school for architecture the car accident ended that and made me meet the ex-husband. A car accident during his visit led us to marriage which gave me Brad and we created Amber. The execs father dying lead to us being in IL. And I love all my friends I met because of that. The ex lost his job and we ended up moving to Edwardsville for him to do college. I used to say the only way I could learn to dance was to be in shattered Crystal with Mistress Alphea. And I also learned metal casting from Master Philippe that way too. I went back to school planning to do physical therapy. My mother had a heart attack then a stroke. I only finished the AS because my Daughter insisted I do so. Because we were down in Edwardsville after the ex went to school Amber got a diagnosis because Wash U and STL childrens hospital. So I need to accept that I am not in charge of my life. I am just a player. The plot is strange, the players are entertaining most of the time. The Villain is more shallow than any book but it is like hearing the thoughts of a character or a story teller where you hate the villain but they are needed. 

. I have to tell you I have been through earthquakes, hurricanes, typhoons,, record floods and a house fire. T bones by a street cleaner, and a semi trash truck. Folded the wheels on a car stopped by a street sigh so I didn't tumble down a ravine in my first month of pregnancy. I have forgotten more crazy s*** that has happened to me than I can even remember. I remember sitting in my tent playing cards when almost all the tents in Midrealm came down during Gulf-nato. Life inconveniences me. And bullies me where it will make me go. 

Place your bets my friend because it is going to be spectacular! It will always be ok in the end. This is why I can tell it is not the end. I am very impatient. I am horrible at gift giving because I give them as soon as I get them. I am so very close to the next part of my life. I know the transition feeling. I know what is not happening. I am making choices from letting tents go. To culling fabric and garb. Working out and eating healthy to live a long life independently without medical assistance. (I Could not say that in 2016) I am about to be 54. I don't feel 54. I don't know if anyone feels their age though. Everything will start to change fast from May 1st beltane full moon on. 🌒🌕🌘 So what is next. Not a friggin clue. Should we place bets. 

I am betting I become independently wealthy, start a foundation with most of the money marriage the love of my life and travel the world. 

I would love seeing all the places and with my current health I could hike even (no mountain climbing) maybe get married on a mountain top or in a wooded ceremony. I never got a wedding the first time so that might be nice.

 Don't quit your day dreams, my loves. 

Closing Karma loops. Ep. 7- 2026

 Our Heroine, is back to losing numbers on the evil  floor plate with moving numbers (scale)! She has lost the equivalency of 3 bags of flour in just Fat alone.  Maybe even more when take into consideration that she has gained much muscle. 

She has set to work doing one thing a day extra such as making rings or other creative endeavors 

She is enjoying making herself the person she is meant to be. Loving herself. Closing only Karma loops so that she in no longer in them. 

The future is amazing. The future is now. 

Nails done,

two rings made, pewter being cast.

 

 

New moons- and new beginnings Episode 6 2026

 This new moon was ceremonial of leaving in the past so much for Our Heroine. Self Judgement for the years of Marriage to someone who played a part and was not their true self, excepting that it is not a judgement on self. 

In-between next was deciding what we shall create in our life. Which we have been manifesting the last 3 weeks being joyous to people no matter the energy they return ( no being adoor mat is not what it equates too) the people who Our Heroine met expressed sadness at my going, as did the folks at the church thrift store. And she will miss them as well. Showing up with a smile and announced of hello beautiful to each of them and a parting wish of have a blessed day left them with a smile and joy and that is what she wants to be in the world 🌎 🌍 

The Equinox is a time of birth it is when we embrace what we intend to be by calling into our existence as by using language speaking as it is done. 

Some folks say it is faking it till you make it. Our Heroine does not. It is being who we forgot we were. Still wearing masks when shielding is necessary. 

Now she just needs to figure out how to shield when in the presence of the ones she's cannot shield from while around other people. Not that she needs to shield around this one for they are safe and she is most happy and in her true self in their presence. However, this doesn't work always when in mixed company. 

When our heroine is in their company.she can just be... In speaking and in silence. 

But there is so much that our heroine is creating in her life. 

May all find the abundance and the love they seek and the joy of living and creating. So Mote it be and a Blessed Be to y'all

Burning words calling them in to creation 

A walk on the shore with Cuz Julz the Gem

We found a record number of Park rocks 26

And filled my pocket with sea glass.

Thrift shop & cars Ep 5-2026

 Our Heroine besides caring for The Teen of mass  destruction while out East also busy's herself with other activities. The one that you're aware of is working out and swimming, however she has other things. Seeking on the beach beach glass and heartstones and working at the thrift store. 

Today our heroine took the art pixie's car to the shop to be worked on, after which our heroine was picked up and taken to the church thrift store where she helps out. And it touched her heart dearly to be told that they didn't want her to leave and go back to Illinois but to stay permanently. Because our heroine is fierce when it comes to haggling with customers and speedy when it comes to going through donations and getting them put away. Our heroine will miss them all dearly while she's gone. 

Other than that it was a fourth day of rest because of lack of sidewalks. Walking on a busy New Jersey Street is not advisable. 

Tune in next time as we find out how the Teen of mass destruction did at the State wrestling tournament.

Life in Jersey continues E.4-2026

Day 10 through day 14

Our Heroine did her daily work outs and every other days walk on the beach. 

Cuz Julz,and Art Pixie came home for the weekend.

As such the Tean of mass destruction was happy and sad. She has big emotions. Sat the two youths  spent with their bio faternal unit. As such The Heroine and Julz did shopping and a large Calzone. 

This is a tradition. We order one large calzone attempt to split it only eat half and take the rest home. It easily makes two meals for two people for 15 bucks. And it's delicious. 

Sunday the Heroine had the morning to her self she worked out and hit the shore. The afternoon every one was back then the Teen of mass destruction has a skate party. Our Heroine retrieved the Teen at the end. This is the skating rink that Our Heroine attended as a child and teenager herself. Talk about a flashback.

The Heroine has still been working out and is tied everyday. Some days it is 400 pulls on the rowing machine, and walking, others is the 100 crunches 

On the machine and walking today was faster walking and pull downs to work on triceps. 

 

Caution Contents Volatile handle with care, 2026, Episode 4

Our Heroine got the Teen of Mass destruction off on time then took a nap. Then ran errands afterwards headed to the shore and enjoyed walking out side. The Sea Fairies Blessed her with many gifts this fine day. The Teen of Mass Destruction had Lacrosse tryouts. As such it was an extra long day. She was volatile in the evening. Lots of emotions going from crying to fine and back again. While food helped She was not able to truly concentrate on any one project for very long. The heroine managed to prevent any major breakdowns and considers that a win. 

Morning was as smooth as mornings can be for the heroine and Teen of mass destruction. 

Or heroine has declared today to be domestic domicile purification day and has decided to reward herself with a trip to keyport for lunch.

Teen came home, did home work and walked with her friend to the store. 

Good day really

Laundry ✔️ 

Dishes ✔️ 

Straighten living rm  ✔️ 

Straighten kitchen ✔️ 

Cat box ✔️ 

Trash out & recycling to curb ✔️ 

Things up to the attic ✔️ 

Bought bag of arms and legs. ✔️ (See photo below)

Day 8- walked 5 miles @Lawrence river, Fit in Size 6 first time.

Day 9 - aquasized and walked Keyport 3.73 miles

3.73 mile. 

Minion madness episode 3 2026

 Our Heroine & Teen of mass destruction. Drove to the City of Liberty Bell. There they are visiting the Heroine's Cuz Julz the Gem, and Art Pixie. 

There Sat they all traveled to the Show of Blooming and pokie life (Philly Flower Show) after going to the market of humans packed like sardines (Reading Market) for food for the 2 youngers. The Heroine acquired a hat. And sprouts.

The Teen of Mass destruction had a wrestling tournament Sun ☀️ morning. She & Julz were gone  Even before the sun rose. Afterwards those 2 went off walking and eating sharing time just the 2 of them.

While Julz and she were gone the Art Pixie slept in and the heroine did laundry for her Cuz. 

Then they both hung out in the cafeteria till they went for Dim sum. The Art pixie had a quiet day taking it easy and doing school work and hanging with new friends.

The next day the Heroine worked out while everyone else did appointments together till the Teen of Mass destruction. Was ready to head home. Stoping at a thrift outlet on the way home. 

Day 5 -4%grade 2.89 miles. 1 hr. 300 pulls on rowing machine 

Day 6- Flower show and Reading Market 

Day 7- 6%grade 2 miles in 51:24 min