1 moon, 2 moon, white moon, blue moon

Was not feeling the third person thing today . This Sagittarius moon is the second this month making it a Blue Moon. So besides calling in this it is a releasing ritual kind of manifesting time along with calling in manifestation ritual time. 9 & 9 it is a house kind of number if you care please go live ok it up if not know I have a I release list and a I call in list. I could not find the moon after my swim till I finally asked the clouds to move so I could get a good look at her. 

 I told the moon the things I give to it to take. And then erased them from my phone list a List of nine things

 Also the 9 things I call into my life as well.

 I shall not share them all with you except for one. This month between moons I decided to give someone who deserves it forgiveness. I worked on forgiving me, for staying in a toxic marriage, for needing to for survival to care for my children. One of which is my step child so I would have had no rights to. I was a good actor at times when I was at the lowest points I acted as if they were some of our best.  I forgive myself For using that situation to care for my mother through heart attack and stroke. I also am accepting that receiving alimony is not wrong it is survival. I intend to build myself many sources of money income so as not to not need it. Besides I deserve love and will not let losing alimony by moving forward in love hold power over me. I forgive myself all I didn't know, and all I tolerated. I Release with this Sagittarius blue moon that grief. And it leads me to in many ways forgive my Ex not because he deserves it. But because I deserve it. I Release him. ("You have no power over me"~Sarah the Labranth) SO MOTE IT BE!

As you can see me and the moon had a long conversation. She was hiding for a while so I moved the clouds so I could see her in all her Glory. During that time I snapped some photos of her. Blessed be my Luna.

37.25+20=57.25 

57.25 + 180 =237.25

237.25 =6.37 miles

Just another day

 180 laps=4.83  miles 10 laps in 15min

37.5 = mile

Yesterday the our Heroine worked at home making Dinglehoppers for stock for the Pagan picnic this coming weekend. Then went to Aquasize and do laps. The Wizard of Aim made it to the work out so they chose to eat out together.

During dinner the Wizard of Aim stated she can tell if Our Heroine is in a Histamine flare or flare in general by her food order. Seems Our Heroine will actively check ingredients when not doing well.  Our Heroine's far speaker was at 6% so she pre called in for the SCA busyness meeting. 

Today was work as usual. Our Heroine realized she is done being a care taker and will be exploring becoming something new maybe as soon as the fall. She also took on a special request for a neighbor of second client and will we doing some cleaning once a month. Sigh  😔 There was a large wolf spider hanging out in the rest room of second clients tub. It scared Our Heroine buy surprising her when she went to fill the mop bucket. It's name shall be Athena. Or Charlie. Not sure.

Our Heroine scared herself by leaving in a rush to get C-clamps and baking pans for Lampworking before swimming. She left the oven on with a chicken breast cooking and only remembered when exiting the club of chlorinated water. She saw two 🚒 fire engines and had a minor panic as the memory came flooding in, She has never done that before. She called a person who shared the residency and they turned off the oven. The good thing was Our Heroine was racing to swim as fast as she could so she had max time in the shower since the club shut at 9 on Friday and Our Heroine got there at 8:05. She was leaving the club by 8:42

She took 15 minutes to swim. It would have been faster but she had hair under her goggles and they kept leaving the first 2 laps. 

Our Heroine might be ready to buy water 💦 🌊 proof bone conductive head phones. 

Since planned dinner was  in-edible she had to come up with something else to eat for dinner. The fastest thing was some vegan chicken that her daughter had and blue berries. 

Our Heroine need to plan dinner better. She is bad at feeding herself. 30 years of being a care taker leaves her a little meh if she isn't thinking of feeding someone else. 

She did eat salads for lunch 😊 

 

Dealing with others negativity

Our Heroine walked into her clients house to be hit with gossip & negative medical additude. Sigh 

Luckily it was a shopping day. Because the words kept pouring out, even in the vehicle  However in the Truckasaurus Rex Our Heroine put on her Witch play list that also has positive affirmations. 

They did stop the negative almost the second the music started.

This morning Our Heroine realized all her hair clips were in the car she wakes up with wild hair because she dosen.t sleep in a bonnet she needs to braid it for bed but again she doesn't It is a lot of work and she should put in the work but someday she dosen't have the spoons by bed time. 

Tonight the Witch Hat Society  is going out for dinner. The Side witch, the Wizard of Aim,  & Mary Moon. They are going to a place named Yeti. 

The goal is to go out at least once a month till the Side Witch 🧹 moves to Chicago Land.

Our Heroine believes that she will get home to late to swim today as such she will need to do twice tomorrow or attempt to do 20 laps instead of just 10.

 10  laps 

160 laps= 4.3 miles 10 laps in 16 min

37.5 = mile

replacing the scale #'s. And tools

Our Heroine is proud to have brought her lap time down to 15 min for 10 laps. Can't promise it will be that low every day but practice, practice, practice. 

Our Heroine has a rule she tries and live by which is don't buy the things unless you have proven you will do the thing first. As such she now has hand paddles and goggles also ear plugs. The Hand paddles help form. It is near impossible to turn arms and hands wrong while using them. It is nice to not have to clear water from her ears. And goggles are needed to stay straight in her lane and not hit the wall.

Our Heroine is not pleased with the scale however she is fitting in things better. She just wants faster results. She wants a tight stomach one that she would be proud of naked.

Our Heroine & the Wizard of Aim ran away to the woods. They made a 2 hr hike take 4 hrs as they stopped for rock hunting and photos a lot. 

 150 laps= 4.02 miles    10 laps in 15 min

37.5 = mile

Dingle hoppers

Today Our Heroine worked on Dingle Hoppers most of the day. Only leaving the Cave to do her 10 laps. 

The DQ app however nailed her as she was leaving the gym so non dairy dilli bar happened. 

ADHD and gym bags don't mix. Our Heroine learned that she has to have 2 towels and 2 swim suits and no gum bag. As such she has changed and a canvas bag and croquet shower bag. Gym bags are where things go to mildew. Though she does now have to have the windows down more to air dry stuff. She goes straight to the shower from the pool and rinses the suit as she strips it off then hand wrings it out. And hangs it on the hanger when she exits the show she hangs it over the sink in the locker room whild dressing. She hasn't left it in the sink since she started using hangers. The one piece shares the towel hanger. The only challenge is remembering to refill the shampoo & conditioner

A Dingle Hopper is a mobile with a fork on it. The name diriving from the Disney the little mermaid. 

Our Heroine will sell them at the Pagan picnic this year. They have sea glass and prisms also as such they work for sky and/or water. 

She is hoping to go hiking tomorrow with the Wizard of Aim. 

 

 

2nd swim of day hit on

 Our Heroine worked out this morning the swam, she received a call from me client asking for a ride home so Our Heroine went straight and helped them out.  During this trek Our Heroine was chatting in Discord with one of her new youths. She seems to have begun her Mamma Bear Era. So she decided to go kid knap said College student and walk the water shed and drive route 66 to the next town and do Lunch. During which fried mushrooms were eaten so afterwards back to swim another 10 laps

The bathing suit and towel from this morning was wet so she wore the medium size one that she wore at The Princess' wedding it get again and is fitting better every day. Though Our Heroine did see the middle in two places it was way to low cut for her comfort. This is the first time she has ever taken a selfie of herself in a swimming suit. She is working on being more body positive. At the moment she is only positive she is not yet happy with hers. However she is working on that. Sigh. 

Also I was hit on while in the pool and checked out when leaving the pool. And I will say I felt kind of nice

130 laps 3.49 miles

Kinetic meditation

 Breath in, 4 strokes breathing out. Repeat all while repeating in our head the number of the lap she is on. 

Our Heroine Aquisized this morning and did 10 laps in the evening. The scale is unfortunately/ fortunately showing gains but it is muscle. 

Don't get her wrong if she ever finds herself in an intimate setting she wants to not lose her breath from being out of shape. And things are drinking in places she would like them too. This time around  Our Heroine is aiming high. She looks forward to the day her head rests on a heart that feels like home. But that is a bonus. Feeling self empowered. That is the win. That and no medical bill for preventable illnesses. 

There is a plank challenge that out Heroine has wanted to be able to do. She tried when she started this fitness journey. So watch for it.