My life is... When I plan safe things my universe pushes the safe opportunities away. Every crazy thing happened and put me where I am today. I lost FIT at 16, but It made Jackie and Puppy and Dad be a big part of my life which gave me the SCA. That also led to me moving to meet my father and oldest sister, whereas I would only have known Alan because he reached out. When I went to school for architecture the car accident ended that and made me meet the ex-husband. A car accident during his visit led us to marriage which gave me Brad and we created Amber. The execs father dying lead to us being in IL. And I love all my friends I met because of that. The ex lost his job and we ended up moving to Edwardsville for him to do college. I used to say the only way I could learn to dance was to be in shattered Crystal with Mistress Alphea. And I also learned metal casting from Master Philippe that way too. I went back to school planning to do physical therapy. My mother had a heart attack then a stroke. I only finished the AS because my Daughter insisted I do so. Because we were down in Edwardsville after the ex went to school Amber got a diagnosis because Wash U and STL childrens hospital. So I need to accept that I am not in charge of my life. I am just a player. The plot is strange, the players are entertaining most of the time. The Villain is more shallow than any book but it is like hearing the thoughts of a character or a story teller where you hate the villain but they are needed.
. I have to tell you I have been through earthquakes, hurricanes, typhoons,, record floods and a house fire. T bones by a street cleaner, and a semi trash truck. Folded the wheels on a car stopped by a street sigh so I didn't tumble down a ravine in my first month of pregnancy. I have forgotten more crazy s*** that has happened to me than I can even remember. I remember sitting in my tent playing cards when almost all the tents in Midrealm came down during Gulf-nato. Life inconveniences me. And bullies me where it will make me go.
Place your bets my friend because it is going to be spectacular! It will always be ok in the end. This is why I can tell it is not the end. I am very impatient. I am horrible at gift giving because I give them as soon as I get them. I am so very close to the next part of my life. I know the transition feeling. I know what is not happening. I am making choices from letting tents go. To culling fabric and garb. Working out and eating healthy to live a long life independently without medical assistance. (I Could not say that in 2016) I am about to be 54. I don't feel 54. I don't know if anyone feels their age though. Everything will start to change fast from May 1st beltane full moon on. 🌒🌕🌘 So what is next. Not a friggin clue. Should we place bets.
I am betting I become independently wealthy, start a foundation with most of the money marriage the love of my life and travel the world.
I would love seeing all the places and with my current health I could hike even (no mountain climbing) maybe get married on a mountain top or in a wooded ceremony. I never got a wedding the first time so that might be nice.
Don't quit your day dreams, my loves.
