Fuck it

 The Heroine says fuck it

"AtWB" avoiding while doing

 Today our Heroine is paying bills and avoiding divorce financial paper work... well not really avoiding.....

Our Heroine has transfer to pot succulents she rooted that came from the city by the bay at her Singing Viking siblings castle. She has to make sure that any apt h

She gets has a juice window to set up the plants in. 

However the goals today are set up house bills, arrange medical bill payments and figure out financial agreements for divorced. SHE HATES the last one the most the medical second most. . However hating the home work doesn't get it done.

There might be a 2nd pot of coffee in the Heroine's day. She is about to start it and the most hated task first, because doing what you dred the most first frees up the emotional burden. (Why didn't she apply that to her marriage years ago)

The Bard came back from the neighboring country of cold, and was in a friendly mood. This led to a dinner conversation to arrange for the Heroine and he listing out the money situation for the divorce. 

Also he asked if there were things he could do in the nursing home search (for his brother) 

The Heroine did point out the whiplash from the extreme attitude shift. 

She did not point out that it is unnerving, and leaves an un easy feeling waiting for it to 180. 

The Heroine in her how to controle the uncontrollable organization style is making a moving divorce list book. Every move every child's birthday party, the Daughters Wedding and every event or class taught has either a book or a section of a book to organize ideas and lists. 

No thoughts or feelings just lists. 

She has a mini one for the hunt for a nursing home even. 

It use to me a thing the Bard though was quirky about the Heroine because she started a birthday party book for the next year birthday party the week after her child's party for the next year. 

FAIRE TO SAY

 Fall has started to show itself and the season of Renaissance Fair is here. Our Heroine is working at the STL Fair. 

She decided to wear Fair clothes rather then her garb. This is planned to be the last time these bodice fit she is still losing weight and has 33lbs to go. It is all loose now even. 

The Heroine spent sat night at Lady Mac Snoods motorhome. She was exhausted this was the first thing she did since her surgery and she is still love extreme lifting restrictions. 

the Heroine had to sit a lot more on Sunday but she worked on fan flipping till she sold all her fans and had no more to flip. Left added and double hand flipping is now a thing.

One Monday Our Heroine had to pick up the Queen of Dorks to help take the Satchel of Richard's to a Dr appointment since there are lifting restrictions still in place so the Heroine can't lift him from chair to car and back again.

The the Heroine rolled a nat 1 versus Inssurance to pay for his Insulin. She will try again tommorow.

The Heroine has set a goal of 17000 by new years of pain off her truck. She can produce 3500 in cash possibly 4500 right this minute. But that is a still way short of the end goal. 

The Heroine might be obsessed with making sure her expenses are always covered. Sigh. 

The Strawberry Truck a sauruse Rex is her last real credit expense out there. 

She does need to apply for a separate credit card that is not shared though. 

Divorcing Nursing homes and Chinese food.

 Today the Heroine spent the day taking care of the Sachal of Richards and calling Long term care facilities for said good gentle, seems that there is no waiting list and as such there will be trips to visit them on Tue.

As well as sewing a hood to wear while stepping her good friends on the field of battle 

later that evening The Side Witch ordered Chinese food for the coven while the Heroine and Bard filled out paperwork for the courthouse to accept the petition the Heroine filed for dissolution of Marriage. This will be hand-delivered to the Circut clerk on Tue. ( might as well see if she can fit a sandwich into the trip at the coffee shop too because E-ville has a cool one, or maybe vegan biscuits and gravy there instead. yum)

The Heroine also called and chatted with her  Friend the Kitchen Witch, in CT, about a rescue mission the Heroine is planning to ride her Broom too maybe in Nov for a month with a foray to NJ to spend Thanks Givings with her Cousins

As the World Burns City by the Bay

 In this episode of As the World Burns, we learn more about our Heroine packing to fly to the city by the bay to visit her Eldest sister. This will be the first time in close to 30 years since she has seen her. When the Heroine was 18 she lived with her sister for a year. She didn't meet her sister till she was 17. The Heroine has viewed her sister as an example of a strong independent, business builder, parent, and wife who has an amazing talent as a singer and entertainer. She is also a giving caring person who has always been good at making personal boundaries. The Heroine is looking forward to hanging out with her. 

The Heroine had to go to sleep at a decent hour about 9 pm a feeling of not being alone calmed her like a hug that snuck up behind her and whispered in her ear. She didn't want it to go away. But it whispered that she didn't need it to be there all the time and that she was strong enough and not lost any more that she had been found. With that, she went to bed and to sleep with no head noise or heart noise. 

 She woke at 3:45 to head to the port of lost luggage. The Gallant Bard drove her and the Wizzard of Ami there. 

The Heroine got hugs in the TSA line from a friend from college (squee) seeing surprise friends is always nice. 

Star-bean-water was acquired venti Blonde, black &  stevia sweet.  Dark and sweet like her soul mah ha ha. Life is good. 

The Heroine might have to start thinking she might be getting skinny because all her friends telling her how much weight she has lost. 

Either that or wow she was a huge, huge, huge person. And that is ok either way she has less pain. 20 to 30 lbs left to lose. 

AS THE World Burns 🔥 how dry we are

 We find our heroine being woken at 4am to the magical summoning of the Side-witch. The Satchel of Richard's had decided that a close inspection of the floor should occur and levitation was needed. As such the Side-witch called forth the Heroine to do this task. 

Before bed the night of last it was discovered the water was Stolen from the faucets. momentary freak out as we think oh no did the Heroine forget to pay the bill? It turned out the city water main is broken imps must be at play. On and off all day no water pressure. 

The heroine made 2 attempts to go shopping today, the first time She managed to get coffee and tea in a neighboring city (WITH WATER) but then became aware of a phone reading at 11 she promised and headed back home. Turns out that while gone the Satchel of Richards fell and had the Side-witch call lift assist to come and levitate him. The second attempt at shopping lead to the discovery that the Heroine left her wallet at home. Meanwhile, her brain was thinking of a glass piece she wanted to try this is what left her distracted. As such, she set fire to her glass and played and excepted her fate for the store shopping was not part of the day's plans.

The heroine straightened her house and room of Richard since his Mother was coming. Also, she helped him change his clothes.

The Side-witch has a party of dolls this Sunday and asked the Heroine to assist in the redistribution of stuff in her domicile. The work was long and hard (that's what she said)  sweat and dust abound. But alas floor was found, and a closet unburied.

The water was stolen again. the Heroine sadly wanted a shower and could not get one. 

She may have to go to the Wizzard of Ami's to finish the laundry and packing (and bath how hard is it to get a shower sheesh.)

Also The Heroine must order spices for a gift basket (DON'T FORGET!) Pack Hool a Hoop

As the World Burns, Start today.

The Heroine of our story has battled some of her demons, she has made them move out of her space.

 She has just returned from the Pennsic war where her heart was found. It was the 1st time she didn't feel alone in a long time. Some of the people even made her feel like she might be pretty, and not a waste of space at times. She had much joy in sharing Glass and games with people who seemed very much to enjoy these things too.

But alas the world is not lived there it is lived here where the world burns. Upon returning the Gallant Bard had surprised her by finding 1/4th of the garage, as such the time machine could be unpacked.  He also cleared the area so she could use 2 of her saws. 

The Satcual of Richards is still here and the sweetness of his blood is anything but that. the Heroine set to work casting spells in the kitchen and made short order of setting that to right, His fox companion has missed the Heroine in her absence has discovered how to open the door and roam the estate.

The heroine's miniature pony has slowed down, even more, this brings much sadness of heart to the Heroine. She remembers the days when her Kizzy flower was the only reason she had to get out of bed. because Kizzy flower can't come downstairs the Heroine will do her cooking in the upstairs kitchen  The heroine set to work getting runners and rugs so her Pony can join her in the kitchen. For dinner for the Sachale of Richards and the Side-Witch, the heroine made a Loaf of meat and the Kizzy flower got a full slice.

The mini Pather roommate did purr in approval of the return of the treat giver. and the Boston Terror too was happy the mate of play was back to take chase once more.

As it is Monday the day started with gathering with the Wizzard of Ami to walk. This has not happened for a great many moons as the Wizzard was off wizarding at others Estates. It does the Heroine's heart good to have her Wizzard back.

Leading up to dinner the Heroine went to the Cahokia Mounds and ran walked a short trail through the woods. Most of the trees are young there. When all the Heroine can think about is her next breath and making it to the next bend in the trail she has peace for a minute. she then laid on a bench just feeling the breeze on her skin before hiking the 154 stairs to the top of Monks mound. 

There was Harvesting of garden food and things to drop at Good Will and clothes to purchase since some of hers were requiring pins to stay up and running was not comfortable.

The heroine only lost 1 lb at the War however it seems some areas moved where that weight is. The strange thing is that the Heroine is smaller in clothing size than she was in 2017 when she had lost more weight. She may have to contemplate what her end goal weight is. It was 124. however, she use to be a size 4 at that weight and since she is already down to a size 6 at 157 this leads to questions. 

While at war the Heroine didn't have her spinning hoop and is happy to have it back. New goal walks while hooping. at that moment she realized she can eat food while hooping and thinks that will be a new thing. it will reduce her snacking lol 

The Heroine and the Side-witch will work on cleaning the Side-witch's Layer today. The Side-witch has a gathering of dolls at the estate this weekend while the Heroine is in the City by the Bay. 

The other thing is that while the Heroine was gone all of the fur balls are gathering force and taking over the house. and the Heroine came home to realize that the Gallant Bard's & Sachal of Richard's Parental units are coming Wed/Thurs. And while neither boy cares about what the house looks like the Heroine does. As such the Heroine's under-estate temple will not be on the cleaning agenda. 

The Heroine is planning to Use the Port of Lost Luggage this Friday to get to the City by the bay and see her Musical Aviary Sister Robin. The Heroine is traveling with the Wizzard of Ami. The heroine misses the sound of water, though the War of Pennsic had a brook that was on her path to her Fairy Glade that she would just stand and listen to on her way home and out. 

On her way home from the War of Pennsic when driving into Illinois and seeing the fields for the first time that she can recall felt like it was home. no longer did she feel that the oceans of the east were home. It was profound.

The heroine gave up a bunch of supplements and reduced and targeted in on a bunch. this is partly because of bruising, and partly because of diet changes. the Heroine is eating a 90% plant-based diet.

The amazing thing for her is waking up not in minimal pain, despite running and hiking and tri dips and hooping.

Silly quote of the post, "I run with the style and grace of a turtle though peanut butter, but I run" 

 And so She can find this info later 

Came home 157 and woke up 153. Pain level 2